I got word on Friday–I made it!
If you’ve been following my Minnesota Brass adventure, you know I had official auditions for the color guard 2-1/2 weeks ago. Thank you to all of you who have been encouraging me over the past few months as I’ve struggled with this new activity. You’ve made me feel better for trying, regardless of how things turned out!
The staff acknowledged that my tryout was a little rough–um, that would be the part I told you about where we learned the new part of the routine and I just couldn’t put it together fast enough to do it with the group. But they like my determination and attitude, so I’m in! I’m sure I won’t be in the whole show (especially after seeing how long I take to learn 30 seconds of complicated choreography–and the show is 9 to 11 minutes long), but I’ll be able to participate, which should be a blast!
Except for one thing.
You know how if you try to get a job/assignment (freelance writing or otherwise), you put on your most confident face and sell yourself? And then if you get the assignment, you’re really happy and excited? Except then reality hits and you realize you have to actually DO this thing you’ve been trying to convince someone else you can do?
That’s me, right now. I’m terrified. Because what if I can’t do it? What if I freeze in front of thousands of people? What if I suck?
I actually have a writing/editing assignment right now that’s giving me the same self-doubt. It’s scary stretching beyond my comfort zone, whether in my writing work or in a sport/activity. If I crash and burn in color guard, it will be very publicly. In front of an audience. Oh well, that will be a post for another day.
For now, until practice this week, I’m just going to bask in: "I made it!"